Well I haven't written anything on here in awhile. So here we go! I'm beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I've talked to so many women who said they "loved" being pregnant. Well I guess I'm just not that kind of woman. I'm really not liking it much these days. I've been feeling pretty good so far but all of a sudden this week I've been feeling pretty bad. I'm 16 weeks along and everything I've read said I would start feeling better in my second trimester but so far that is not the case for me. I feel horrible! I'm getting awful pains and craps in my abdominal area and it seems like I'm getting depressed. I just can't seem to get myself out of the funk I've been in all week. I told my hubby yesterday that I just don't like this whole pregnancy thing. I'm hoping when I actually start to feel the baby move it might change but right now I feel crappy. I think I'm getting depressed because I feel bad because I'm not "enjoying" it like everyone tells me I should. I can't stand the weight I've gained, none of my clothes are fitting right anymore and everyone keeps telling me its for a good cause but why can't I see it that way. I wonder if other women ever feel like this? Am I just being too hard on myself? I don't know I just wish I felt better about it. I keep thinking this will probably be the only one we have and I know my hubby wants two kids but I just don't know if I want to go through it again. I guess time will tell I just hope I feel better soon!
later............
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The people that loved every second of being pregnant are retarded. Yes, it's a beautiful child that is the end result. DUH. But pregnancy itself is hell on us. Your body is never the same, your hormones are completely out of whack (for up to a year after the baby is born) and who enjoys gaining weight? You're not alone. Like everything else, there are good days and bad days. But the bad days just suck out loud because this is your 1st pregnancy and you're like, "This is what the hoopla is all about??!!!!" It gets better. Soon you'll have showers and more doc appointments and due dates and people doting on you...hopefully your boobs have stopped growing. I dont think the church can add on anymore rooms. HAHAHAHAHA. It doesnt suck forever - and when Riley Lou gets here you'll get a fart pain and think, "Sigh, she's not in there anymore. She's right here spitting up on my shoulder and pooping in my hand." GOTTA LOVE IT!!!
And as far as the one child...Dan wanted two as well, but because of 10000 factors was completely fine with Austin once he got here. Dave may only want to get up at 3am for so long. HEHEHE. Seriously, you will do what is right for you and your family. Stop stressing about 1, 2, 3 years from now! Crap, you may want another one yourself - you just dont know yet. I've been there - and I'll be here for you, every step o' the way, ok? Please take comfort that 1) YOU WILL BE ALLRIGHT when all is said and done. YOU CAN DO THIS!!
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