Well I haven't written anything on here in awhile. So here we go! I'm beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I've talked to so many women who said they "loved" being pregnant. Well I guess I'm just not that kind of woman. I'm really not liking it much these days. I've been feeling pretty good so far but all of a sudden this week I've been feeling pretty bad. I'm 16 weeks along and everything I've read said I would start feeling better in my second trimester but so far that is not the case for me. I feel horrible! I'm getting awful pains and craps in my abdominal area and it seems like I'm getting depressed. I just can't seem to get myself out of the funk I've been in all week. I told my hubby yesterday that I just don't like this whole pregnancy thing. I'm hoping when I actually start to feel the baby move it might change but right now I feel crappy. I think I'm getting depressed because I feel bad because I'm not "enjoying" it like everyone tells me I should. I can't stand the weight I've gained, none of my clothes are fitting right anymore and everyone keeps telling me its for a good cause but why can't I see it that way. I wonder if other women ever feel like this? Am I just being too hard on myself? I don't know I just wish I felt better about it. I keep thinking this will probably be the only one we have and I know my hubby wants two kids but I just don't know if I want to go through it again. I guess time will tell I just hope I feel better soon!
later............

It's real! I saw it on TV

Well I had my first ultrasound done today! We are 9 weeks along!! My due date is staying at October 27th. It was really cool to see Cletus on the screen. I giggled when I heard the heartbeat. Then they took so much blood I thought they were gonna drain me dry! I really think seeing Cletus on the screen made everything sink in. I guess just missing my period wasn't enough in my mind. But seeing it was like "Oh my God it is real"
Well this has been a nice long weekend for me but I have to go back to work tomorrow...poop! Being on my feet all night long and building trucks is very draining for me now. I don't think I've ever felt so tired! I'm kinda hoping that I don't work too far into the summer because it is going to be so hot in there and carrying around the extra baby weight is going to suck! I talked to the doc today about any weight restrictions. Right now she told me the limit is about 25 pounds, which is what I lift every day at work, but we will have to evaluate how I'm feeling later on in the pregnancy to see if she's gonna restricted me more. Well that's it for now..so meet Cletus!
later!!

Anybody got a boat??

Well I think I've officially have seen enough rain in the last two days to last me a lifetime!! I hate this crappy weather. Nothing like having a pack of wet dogs to have to dry off every time they have to go outside to go potty!! Now that is a chore in itself!
I'm so happy to have a 4 day work week!! We have Friday off for a spring holiday aka Good Friday. I'm also off work on Monday so I have a 4 day weekend..YAY!! I go to my first doctors appointment and ultrasound on Monday. I have got to remember to write down any questions I have for her or any info that I need to give her concerning my job. Part of me would love to get out of that plant until after the baby is born but part of me knows I would be bored to tears sitting at home all the time. I hate being torn..Ahhhh!!!
I was kinda pissed off yesterday because I didn't get to go to a funeral with my hubby. Of course crappy Toyota put a stop to that. They claim to balance family and work time but that is only when the balancing is in their favor..bastards!! I'm so tired of that place I can't wait until some day when I can justify quiting!! Right now just isn't the right time especially with a little one on the way. Well I think I'm done babbling for now.
Later!

Aww...the weekend

I'm so glad it's the weekend!! I've made it through another wonderful week at work. There is a chemical that I use at work that my doctor had some concern about because I'm pregnant. Well earlier this week they hooked a air monitor to me for a couple hours while I worked. Then come to find out that they won't have the results for a couple of weeks...hmmmmm...should I be concerned until the results come in?? I'm trying not to, the specialist who came down to talk to me told me that it was safe for me to be around. You think Toyota being the company it is wouldn't want to risk a law suit because they had me use a chemical that made my baby come out with 3 arms or 1 leg. So I'm going to put faith in the company that I work for and try not to think the worst. Plus since the plant has been around for over 10 years now I'm sure I'm not the first pregnant woman who has had to work around it.
Well I'm really ready for all this snow to be done with. Driving to work Friday really sucked! Thankfully the drive home wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. All I thought of was next year when I have an infant that I have to transport back and forth in the car with the weather like this. I just can't see risking an accident with a baby in the car just to go build trucks that nobody's buying because gas prices are sky high!!!!! I guess my priorities are going to change alot this time next year. Either that or I'll be looking for a new job where I won't have to worry about getting in trouble if I miss work because I don't want to drive my child on the snowy, slick roads.
Well that's all for now
Later....taters!!

One Day at a Time

Well it's been a week since my pregnancy test came back positive. In the past week I've had to ween myself off my anxiety medicine. That has been hard. Also I've had to work on my smoking. I've gotten down to 1/2 pack a day. I know I need to totally quit but I needed to get off the medicine first. I can only handle one at a time. I've been smoking for almost 20 years so it's about time I quit but it's just going to take a little time to ween myself off. My anxiety has been on a little bit of a roller coaster ride this week but I'm handling it o.k. so far. I go to my first doctors appointment on Friday, actually I'm only going to see the nurse to confirm the pregnancy I guess. I have so many questions I guess I need to write them down and bring them with me. Hopefully the nurse can answer some of them if not relay them to my doctor. Well I guess that is all for now.
Until another time
toddles!

Saying Goodbye

Well tonight we are going to a going away dinner for a girl I work with. This Friday the 29th will be her last day at Toyota. She worked there for 3 years through a "temp agency" called PMI and she is being laid off. How is 3 years a temp job? I'm going to miss her. I've only had the pleasure of working with her for 6 months but in that time frame we had become friends. She is a damn good worker and a good person. I'm going to miss her "I don't put up with shit attitude" I think that is why we get along so good! I wish her well in whatever life brings her next. I hoping we stay in touch and it's not a "good-bye" forever. She was so happy for me when I found out I was pregnant she knew I had been trying for so long. Well this blog is in memory of the good times we had at work. So one more week and she's gone. She will be dearly missed! Love ya Katie!
That's all for now
Until next time

Positive or Negative?

Well I woke up this morning and took a pregnancy test. Well the results were positive!! I am pregnant!! If my calcutalions are correct we are 2 1/2-3 weeks pregnagnt! I go to the doctor on Feb. 29 for my first check up. Wow I think my life just changed in the matter of a few seconds when I peed on that stick. Now starts the long journey of the waiting game. I just hope everything goes well and I can keep my anxiety under control. Now I'm going off all my medications. So hopefully it will all work out! I'm gonna continue my yoga for now so hopefully that will help with my relaxation. Well I guess that's all I have to write for now.

toodles

Yoga is NOT for wimps!!

Well I went to my 4th yoga class this morning. Let me tell you it is hard!! I started the yoga a couple of weeks ago hoping it might help with my anxiety. My doctor was very happy when I told him I started and thought it would be good for me. If you don't know much about yoga it's about breathing and relaxing, also you gain strength through the poses they teach you. Basically it's a total physical and mental work out. I'm tired but feel good after a class so I'm going to try to discipline myself to get up and go at least 3-4 times a week. Wish me luck!

Well I go back to work today after being off for 3 weeks due to my anxiety/panic disorder. I'm feeling really good and haven't had an attack in over a week now! Hopefully the new medication my doctor put me on is helping. My only worry is that Dave and I are trying to get pregnant and I'm not sure if my ob/gyn will want me to stay on it. I'll just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.

Well I think that's all for now

Until next time....toodles

Another good weekend!

Well I went to my friends benefit yesterday! We had a really good time! He remembered us and was so happy that we came, my hubby and I were the only 2 people to show up from Toyota except one other guy who just came for a short visit. We got some cool stuff at the action they had to raise money. I've never been part of an action before it was pretty cool! The best part was that all the money raised went to my friend and his wife to help pay the mounding medical bills from his accident! All in all it was a good day!! Oh yea that is Me, him and my hubby in the pic.

Today I went to lunch with my fabulous sister-in-law Mel. We had a good time talking and drinking margaritas!! It was the first time we had ever gone out just the two of us. We so are going be doing it more often!

So I guess you can say I had a pretty awesome weekend! Gotta go back to work tomorrow...not totally looking forward to that but what else have I got to do!

Well that all for now

Later...taters

Tax Time

Not a very exciting day. Got our tax's done and this is the first time I ever filed a joint return. It's different. But we are getting a nice chunk of change back from the IRS so I'm not complaining!! I go back to work on Monday after being off on medical leave for 3 weeks. Kinda looking forward to going back to work but just not back to my place of work. Hmmm...does that make sense?

Well I'm still a little sore from my tattoo yesterday and of course every time my hubby hugs me he presses on that part of my back...goober! I know he doesn't mean to but it still kinda hurts. Make note if you ever get a tattoo on your back beware of your spine area that hurts like hell..probably just as much as the one I have on the back of my neck.

Tomorrow we might go to a benefit for a friend of ours that was in an accident last summer. He was hit by a drunk driver and had a serious brain injury it totally messed him up. He had to relearn everything in his life for example eating, talking, walking, etc. It was like he had to start completely over from childhood. It is very tragic. I haven't seen him since before the accident because he moved away for another job. I hope I can handle seeing him now and I hope he remembers us! All I want to remember is the old him before this asshole destroyed his life!

Well that's all for now

toodles

Another Day..another tattoo!

Well I got my newest addition to my tatto collection this brings the number up to 9 tattoo's. I got more work added to my back piece! It hurt like a HELL! Especially right along my spine. Here are before and after pics.

Also my doc started me on a new medication for my anxiety it's called Cymbalta..I'm hoping it works for me cause I really want to get off the medication i'm currently on which is Klonopin (which is like Valium). I'm hoping to get to the point where I only have to take the Klonopin on as "as needed basis". Oh by the way I suffer from what they call an anxiety/panick disorder..it sucks when the anxiety starts I can't stop it, so I need medication to help me control it. When it gets real bad I feel like "i'm going crazy" but i'm not crazy that is just how it feels.

Well that's all for now

toodles

Happy Day!

Well I didn't get the tattoo I wanted today :-( I was suppose to get some work done on my back piece, but the artist was snowed into his driveway and wasn't able to make it to work today. I was able to reschedule my appointment with him for tomorrow. But!!! There was another design I want to get also! I was able to get it today because they had an artist with an opening. Here is a pic of it. It's called a Claddagh. A Claddagh is an Irish symbol the Hands=friendship, Heart=love, Crown= loyalty. Oh yea by the way I am Irish so it has meaning to me. I am so happy with the results. By far I think this if my favorite tattoo I have ever gotten. I LOVE IT!!!!!! Other then that I don't think I have much else to write about other then my trip to Petsmart which was a $133 bill. Not bad when your buying for 5 dogs and 3 cats. Having pets and treating them properly cost you money...but my "fur babies" are worth every cent!

Well toodles for now!

My first time

Well this is my first post on here. Just though I would start it to vent and get things off my chest or just talk about my life. Well I'm a big NASCAR fan and I'm looking foward to the Daytona 500 this weekend. So help root for my boy Kevin Harvick. He won last year, so I'm hoping for a repeat!
I love tattoo's and tommorrow I'm getting some more work done on my back piece...can't wait!!! Hopefully it comes out like I'm imagining it.
Well that's all for my first post.
toodles for now