Well I haven't written anything on here in awhile. So here we go! I'm beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I've talked to so many women who said they "loved" being pregnant. Well I guess I'm just not that kind of woman. I'm really not liking it much these days. I've been feeling pretty good so far but all of a sudden this week I've been feeling pretty bad. I'm 16 weeks along and everything I've read said I would start feeling better in my second trimester but so far that is not the case for me. I feel horrible! I'm getting awful pains and craps in my abdominal area and it seems like I'm getting depressed. I just can't seem to get myself out of the funk I've been in all week. I told my hubby yesterday that I just don't like this whole pregnancy thing. I'm hoping when I actually start to feel the baby move it might change but right now I feel crappy. I think I'm getting depressed because I feel bad because I'm not "enjoying" it like everyone tells me I should. I can't stand the weight I've gained, none of my clothes are fitting right anymore and everyone keeps telling me its for a good cause but why can't I see it that way. I wonder if other women ever feel like this? Am I just being too hard on myself? I don't know I just wish I felt better about it. I keep thinking this will probably be the only one we have and I know my hubby wants two kids but I just don't know if I want to go through it again. I guess time will tell I just hope I feel better soon!
later............

It's real! I saw it on TV

Well I had my first ultrasound done today! We are 9 weeks along!! My due date is staying at October 27th. It was really cool to see Cletus on the screen. I giggled when I heard the heartbeat. Then they took so much blood I thought they were gonna drain me dry! I really think seeing Cletus on the screen made everything sink in. I guess just missing my period wasn't enough in my mind. But seeing it was like "Oh my God it is real"
Well this has been a nice long weekend for me but I have to go back to work tomorrow...poop! Being on my feet all night long and building trucks is very draining for me now. I don't think I've ever felt so tired! I'm kinda hoping that I don't work too far into the summer because it is going to be so hot in there and carrying around the extra baby weight is going to suck! I talked to the doc today about any weight restrictions. Right now she told me the limit is about 25 pounds, which is what I lift every day at work, but we will have to evaluate how I'm feeling later on in the pregnancy to see if she's gonna restricted me more. Well that's it for now..so meet Cletus!
later!!

Anybody got a boat??

Well I think I've officially have seen enough rain in the last two days to last me a lifetime!! I hate this crappy weather. Nothing like having a pack of wet dogs to have to dry off every time they have to go outside to go potty!! Now that is a chore in itself!
I'm so happy to have a 4 day work week!! We have Friday off for a spring holiday aka Good Friday. I'm also off work on Monday so I have a 4 day weekend..YAY!! I go to my first doctors appointment and ultrasound on Monday. I have got to remember to write down any questions I have for her or any info that I need to give her concerning my job. Part of me would love to get out of that plant until after the baby is born but part of me knows I would be bored to tears sitting at home all the time. I hate being torn..Ahhhh!!!
I was kinda pissed off yesterday because I didn't get to go to a funeral with my hubby. Of course crappy Toyota put a stop to that. They claim to balance family and work time but that is only when the balancing is in their favor..bastards!! I'm so tired of that place I can't wait until some day when I can justify quiting!! Right now just isn't the right time especially with a little one on the way. Well I think I'm done babbling for now.
Later!

Aww...the weekend

I'm so glad it's the weekend!! I've made it through another wonderful week at work. There is a chemical that I use at work that my doctor had some concern about because I'm pregnant. Well earlier this week they hooked a air monitor to me for a couple hours while I worked. Then come to find out that they won't have the results for a couple of weeks...hmmmmm...should I be concerned until the results come in?? I'm trying not to, the specialist who came down to talk to me told me that it was safe for me to be around. You think Toyota being the company it is wouldn't want to risk a law suit because they had me use a chemical that made my baby come out with 3 arms or 1 leg. So I'm going to put faith in the company that I work for and try not to think the worst. Plus since the plant has been around for over 10 years now I'm sure I'm not the first pregnant woman who has had to work around it.
Well I'm really ready for all this snow to be done with. Driving to work Friday really sucked! Thankfully the drive home wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. All I thought of was next year when I have an infant that I have to transport back and forth in the car with the weather like this. I just can't see risking an accident with a baby in the car just to go build trucks that nobody's buying because gas prices are sky high!!!!! I guess my priorities are going to change alot this time next year. Either that or I'll be looking for a new job where I won't have to worry about getting in trouble if I miss work because I don't want to drive my child on the snowy, slick roads.
Well that's all for now
Later....taters!!

One Day at a Time

Well it's been a week since my pregnancy test came back positive. In the past week I've had to ween myself off my anxiety medicine. That has been hard. Also I've had to work on my smoking. I've gotten down to 1/2 pack a day. I know I need to totally quit but I needed to get off the medicine first. I can only handle one at a time. I've been smoking for almost 20 years so it's about time I quit but it's just going to take a little time to ween myself off. My anxiety has been on a little bit of a roller coaster ride this week but I'm handling it o.k. so far. I go to my first doctors appointment on Friday, actually I'm only going to see the nurse to confirm the pregnancy I guess. I have so many questions I guess I need to write them down and bring them with me. Hopefully the nurse can answer some of them if not relay them to my doctor. Well I guess that is all for now.
Until another time
toddles!

Saying Goodbye

Well tonight we are going to a going away dinner for a girl I work with. This Friday the 29th will be her last day at Toyota. She worked there for 3 years through a "temp agency" called PMI and she is being laid off. How is 3 years a temp job? I'm going to miss her. I've only had the pleasure of working with her for 6 months but in that time frame we had become friends. She is a damn good worker and a good person. I'm going to miss her "I don't put up with shit attitude" I think that is why we get along so good! I wish her well in whatever life brings her next. I hoping we stay in touch and it's not a "good-bye" forever. She was so happy for me when I found out I was pregnant she knew I had been trying for so long. Well this blog is in memory of the good times we had at work. So one more week and she's gone. She will be dearly missed! Love ya Katie!
That's all for now
Until next time

Positive or Negative?

Well I woke up this morning and took a pregnancy test. Well the results were positive!! I am pregnant!! If my calcutalions are correct we are 2 1/2-3 weeks pregnagnt! I go to the doctor on Feb. 29 for my first check up. Wow I think my life just changed in the matter of a few seconds when I peed on that stick. Now starts the long journey of the waiting game. I just hope everything goes well and I can keep my anxiety under control. Now I'm going off all my medications. So hopefully it will all work out! I'm gonna continue my yoga for now so hopefully that will help with my relaxation. Well I guess that's all I have to write for now.

toodles